Saturday, February 7, 2009

Warning: It's dangerous to articulate feelings when you haven't slept in 48 hours

Okay, so...we're here! We arrived this afternoon with all persons and luggage (and minds) intact. Praise God! Our little chalet isn't quite finished yet, so we're stay in the guest room of the "big" chalet until it is. (Also a huge blessing).

So, like I said...we're here. But, if I tried to articulate my feelings right now, they wouldn't necessarily be positive. I hate to admit that I actually tend to have quite a difficult time transitioning from America back to Africa (not so much the other way...imagine...) It's so funny, because once I get my groove goin' I love it and am absolutely comfortable and at home. But after 4 months in the States, the heat and the bugs are making me crazy already! However, I haven't slept more than 7 or 8 hours in the last three days. SO, I suppose tonight isn't exactly the time to analyze my calling in Africa.

This post has no lesson or value or even information. It's only a slow sigh and whine from this American girl who just got thrown back into a country/continent that she loves, but always has a little bit of trouble adjusting to. Just want you to know. In case any of you have any sort of delusion that I'm really tough and faithful or that this is always a piece of cake for me (I won't speak for Jake, it pretty much is a piece of cake for him, but he doesn't really count, there's not much that ever bothers him). Besides the hardships that make for good stories, sometimes Africa is just plain hard because it makes you doubt the reason you even tell those stories...

However, tonight promises sleep (hopefully!) And tomorrow will consist of church in the bush (one of my favorite things to come back to). So, chat with me later. I might have a totally different attitude. Like I said, I don't know if it's safe to judge feelings when you're this sleep deprived.



Jaime Bugaski said...

Hey loves - glad that you made it back safe and sound! Oh the heat and bugs.... and rutted roads and broken vehicles and unreliable electricity and gawking men in the street and immigration officials and everything else that makes Africa, Africa. How easy it is to romanticize when we're not actually there. But that's how you know that you're really in it for the right reasons, because you don't just think wistfully upon a few good months - you go back. And you deal with the heat and the bugs. It's not always pleasant and it's not always fun and there are times (lots of them) when you want nothing more than to go home. But you'll get through it. A good night's sleep and some worship in the bush and you'll be lovin the Zambian life once again.

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